So the saying goes that things come in threes...Here I am waiting for the last shoe to drop...Life has taken some nasty turns the last 3 weeks.

1) 3 weeks ago: my healthy as a horse grandpa suddenly is dying quickly from multiple different cancers...a few months (min) to a year (max)...He is the rock i turn to...he is the one who spoils his Katrina. If you have read my blog on my grams...then you know who Grump is. Its that grandpa. Its incredibility sad yet happy at the same time. Grams was robbed from us. We are given that "one more day" together with Grump and trust me we are all taking FULL advantage of this. Last weekend, he got married to his long time gf (7 years together). What an emotional happy day that was!!! so each day brings a new challenge and or heartbreak we have to face.

2) Sunday: we get the call that Drew's cousin attempted suicide. No one had a clue he was that unhappy that he felt he could no longer be on this earth. Yesterday he was in surgery into the evening hours and listed as critical condition. Today we come to find out he is life support. He drove out to a MN country road and pulled the trigger. A concerned passerby saw his car, stopped due to the scene. The cousin was not breathing but his heart was beating. Tonight we head to the hospital (the whole family) to say our good byes basically since he will now be a vegetable unless his mom decides to take him off life support. There is no quality of life being a vegetable...Such sadness for someone so young and full of life to feel there is no other way...

so here is sit at work watching the clock tick tock to the time to leave to face this next challenge. Yet here is what i have learned. Hug a little tighter, smile when the sun breaks through the clouds and let those who are here that you love them dearly.

So to a certain dear lost boy, sorry i haven't followed a certain trail of raspberries for i am having a hard time finding myself in the mist of all of this...trying to break through the water that feels so heavy on my shoulders...Here is my wish on a star that you know what your friendship means and will understand. Many hugs!!!

To all my other Blog friends! you are all amazing people and i am lucky to have such great friendships. Thank you!

Ok my time has come to leave my work, hit up the gas station in preparation of driving plenty of miles tonight wiht a heavy heart...Take care all...

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow" **Einstein**

Hugs and lots of love to all!
K to the T